Manic Depression Mania: SpInNing into butter..

There is an old saying I remember from my childhood called ‘spinning into butter.’ It means things get so out of control, the milk just whirls and whirls around until it becomes a solid mass of butter!

Mania is like spinning into butter- that’s for sure.  The name Manic Depression was used for so long because it’s an apt description for bipolar in most ways- though we now know the illness is so much more- but… the mania is so dangerous in that it can wreck your life very, very quickly.

If you feel you’re spinning into butter- it can be from anxiety, doing too much, other triggers or… simply from a hypomanic or manic episode.

What is the next step? Make yourself sit down and take an honest evaluation of where you are.  If you’re manic, or starting to get manic- now is the time to take action- not creative action- but manic stopping action. It’s better to be milk than butter.

My book Take Charge of Bipolar Disorder has a good and very easy to read section on mania. I would start with the mania posts on the blog- you can go to the right and click on the mania category- and then I would use Take Charge.

No butter. Julie

Work your way out of depression…..

Darn it – I really do have quite a great week in terms of work – I am speaking to psych residents today and am teaching at a writing conference on Friday. And I just went into a pretty strong downswing.  I promised myself I would not use the word UNFAIR to describe what we go through- so I have to come up with other words:

Unfortunate- too bad, sad, bummer, rotten, awful, @#$@%

Haha. I can keep going when I’m down- I have my plan. Get it Done When You’re Depressed is sitting right here on my desk: I am going to open it randomly and then promise myself I will do what it says”

#34  Educated Your Friends and Family About Depression.

Heck yea! I am doing that. I know there will be a downswing on Sunday after the conference, so I’m already asking for help from family and friends- I must have something planned to help me deal with the inevitable. They know me well and understand that I am WEIRD. (But only in a bipolar way.)

Julie

I love this book so much. Even if I hadn't written it, I would love it. These books are gifts from the well self to the ill self. Even for the writer!

Halleluiah, I am not sick at this moment… but….

I have what I call Ultradian Rapid Cycling Bipolar II with psychotic features, etc. Truthfully, my form of bipolar is pretty rare- which is probably why I can write about bipolar 24 hours a day- my moods change so constantly. I just counted that in the last ten days I’ve had 15 mood swings. I get very, very tired of it.  These mood swings have been constant since 2002- I am not sure why I’ve gotten so much worse over the years- though I know my management skills have improved 1000% since I wrote the Health Cards. That is why I talk about them so much.

I am speaking to a group of psychiatric residents at Oregon Health and Sciences University hospital next week. I am very looking forward to this- and in the opening of my talk, I’m going to ask the audience to guess how many mood swings I’ve had since January 1st of this year. Can you guess? I will post the number after the presentation.  I actually cried a bit when I read the number – I guess we all cry about this illness-it’s so difficult to live with it.

I chart my mood every single day and have done so for at least ten years. It’s essential for me to know when I’m in a mood swing as my brain lies so much and if I listen to it, I will make big mistakes. Even now and I’m 46.

Do you have rapid cycling? It’s defined as three or more mood swings a year.  Hmmm. Most of the people I work with have rapid cycling-  so I think that is a pretty low estimate of mood swings!

What matters is that I’m not sick at this moment. I’m sure the mania that has been dogging me will come back later and I will have to be super careful at karaoke tonight- and when the depression hits- as it will in the next week for sure- I will be ready to fight it off.

How are you today? If you’re unsure of your moods- you can draw a line on a piece of paper- add a date and put a dot above the line for mania and a dot below for depression – with an X for anxiety and OCD and P (for psychosis) and you have a mood swing chart!

There is one in Take Charge of Bipolar Disorder- with an example of one of my real charts in the back. It’s pretty interesting.  Take Charge is the perfect book if  you were just diagnosed or care about someone who was just diagnosed.  I love the book.

Julie

Newsletter: Mania, hypomania, euphoric mania, dysphoric mania- my plea to you!

Mania is devastating. Mania ruins relationships. Mania gets people fired. Mania gets you drunk, makes you gamble away your child’s college fund, gives you STDs, makes you so ‘creative’ you can’t see that what you’re creating makes no sense. Mania… is… dangerous.

I talk about mania in these terms because I have been there, my former partner was there and in the hospital for two months and I work with families in my coaching business who are either dealing with a manic child who has left the family to ‘take a trip around the states to see what’s out there!’ , has left a partner for greener pastures, is in jail, stopped their medications (this is often the reason for the mania), bought a $10,000 painting because it was so beauuuuuuutifuuuuuuuul!

I have seen and felt the destruction of mania. 

I am here to tel you that mania starts small- it’s starts with small signs that if you notice them early as either the person with bipolar disorder or as a loved one- you can stop the destruction.

Here are three:

1. Suddenly feel better after a depression or a long period of wondering what is wrong with life and why you feel so down, uncreative and unloving all of the time. And then the mind clears and things are wonderful and you have energy again and you want to have sex again and you just love everything!

2. You stop sleeping all day and think of what a good idea it would be to get out and go to a park.

3. Beer and other alcohol or drugs look good and you no longer think of their destruction if you do them too often.

4. You can talk to anyone.

5. You suddenly feel very irritated and restless after being lethargic and unresponsive during a depression.

6. You want to beat someone up!

If you look at my mania Health Card, you will see all of this. I need to get mine out and look at them today. If you don’t have the Health Cards or Take Charge or any other way to see the beginning signs of mania, I suggest you find something today. It’s summer and mania is on the move.

There is a link to the right where you can read more about my books and how they help with mania. I use all of the ideas in my books daily.

Julie

Secrets of Extreme Savers- and help for those with bipolar too!

Hi,

People often ask me for financial management advice for people with bipolar disorder. I am going to do a teleseminar on the topic and will keep you posted. If there are particular things you would like me to cover in the teleseminar, just let me know.

The following article was in Yahoo Finance today:

http://financiallyfit.yahoo.com/finance/article-110102-5999-1-secrets-of-extreme-savers?ywaad=ad0035

It has a lot of great tips- of course, it describes people with jobs and what seems to be a healthy life- but we can learn from their ideas. Here are a few things you may not know about me!

1. I am cash only. I mean this. I don’t have debit cards or credit cards AT ALL.

2. I try to budget for each place I go.  I find that budgeting for a whole day doesn’t work for me- but budgeting the cash for a certain event such as a Thai restaurant with friends really helps. This is MUCH harder during a manic or depression mood swing. That’s for sure! But I keep trying.

3. I don’t go shopping in order to go shopping. If I find myself looking around and thinking how great things look and how I would LOVE those shoes and how PRETTY that shirt is- I know I’m hypomanic.

These are a few of my ideas. I started all of this in 2010. It has been hard- but it works! I am interested in your ideas.

Julie

The Four Agreements – a book for getting through life…

I have read The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz many times in the past ten years. I have listened to the recorded version even more.   The four agreements are simple:

1. Be impeccible with your word.

2. Don’t take anything personally.

3. Don’t make assumptions.

4. Always do your best.

I have lived my life using these agreements since first reading the book. It has been hard. In fact, writing about them today gives me a good reminder that I have a situation in my life right now where the assumptions are rampant! I will take care of that!  I also remind myself that doing my best is often based on my best in terms of where I am with bipolar disorder. On the really, really tough days, my best is quite different than on the more normal days. And on the hypomanic days- watch out! 😉

Julie

By Don Miguel Ruiz