I’m speaking at the NAMI Oregon yearly conference tomorrow. I have a class in the morning and then will speak at the luncheon. The most difficult part of all of this is getting my books, post cards order sheets and travel stuff. I worry that I won’t be able to sleep and that I will get overstimulated. Yada, yada, yada. If I let my mind go no this way, I will go bonkers.
It makes a lot more sense to actually load my car ahead of time and print out what I need. That way I can get to bed early and be ready for the drive. This is not a bipolar thing- it’s a normal speaking thing. It becomes a bipolar thing if I don’t take care of myself now. So I’m going to! It’s human nature that we often worry more than we actually do things. It will only take me a few hours to get ready. I have already spent a few hours this morning worrying about getting ready. That is just dumb!
Julie
I can so relate!!!! I have to do the same just to get ready for work the next day. I have to go to Atlanta Saturday which is a 2 hour trip from home, however if I don’t prepare for it at least 2 days in advance, I am so stressed out. And like you said, it becomes a bipolar thing. I make a list of what I need to take and put a copy in my purse and one in my luggage so that I have a backup in case one gets lost. I also have a copy forwarded to my email address so I can look it up if I need to. OK so, I’m slightly OCD!!!!!
Julie —
I met you today at the NAMI Conference. Lisa Wood — I am the one that came up to you and asked about my daughter and then stated that I think I too have bipolar but my doctor has me on citalopram (celexa) right now. You suggested I get a full Psychiatric evaluation.
I so appreciated your story and being “real” with me. I am so scared about having a full psychiatric evaluation done on myself. Since my daughter is diagnosed Bi Polar and Borderline Personality, I am really afraid of what my own diagnosis is. I know that diagnosis isn’t really important, but I am afraid of who I really am… Sorry if I am gabbing, I am just really scared!!!
Talk with you soon,
Lisa