Working will show you the way!
I’m almost done with my latest book proposal. It got sidelined when I got so sick in January. There are times when I truly can’t work because of the bipolar disorder- but I can usually get through it and finish my work. Now it’s time to get it done.
I always write in my books that you don’t have to want to do something to get it done. It’s true! But I have found out something else as well- even if you’re confused about the next step of a project- even when you feel overwhelmed and that you can’t do it! – sitting down and starting the work actually tells you the direction you need to take.
This is what I’m going through today. This is a very difficult project- by far my most difficult book- and I just feel like watching a DVD and forgetting about it all. But I won’t. I know what I want my future to look like- which means I have to sit down and work. So here I am in Starbucks. I wrote this blog to get myself started and now it’s time to finish the proposal and get a new deal! I can do it! If you’re working on a tough project – you can do it too!
julie
thank you julie . . . what a sweet blessing to hear your words. today the disease was winning. all i could hear in my head is what a failure i am and that i may as well give up. i feel like i am such a loser. but i don’t think that is really the truth. i can think those thoughts but do NOT have to let them win. i can regroup and do even better next time and things WILL turn around-even if i don’t know it right now. i get so ashamed of this illness and how it affects my life. but that is no reason to give up. if i don’t give this job a fair chance, HOW WILL I EVER KNOW HOW SUCCESSFUL I COULD BE, right? i hope and pray to know this now. thanks. everyone out there-just don’t give up no matter what-even when you want to.
nichol
It was Woody Allen who said “90 percent of life is just showing up.”
So maybe we modify that and say “90 percent of getting something done is just getting started.”
Hi Julie,
You wrote, “I know what I want my future to look like.” I know it’s a huge and possibly unanswerable question but how did you find that out? what you want your future to look like. My doctor and therapist are constantly bugging me to make goals for the future and figure out what I want my life to look like in 5 years. I don’t know! I find it really difficult to make long-term goals because I know reasonably-well that I am probably not going to get there. I crash, and lose everything. It sounds pessimistic, and to a point it is, but looking at my past and my history of episodes and hospitalizations and their outcomes it’s not completely untrue. How do you get past the fear and pick what you want your future to look like? How do you keep the hope alive and keep going when you don’t want to or feel like you can’t survive?