I woke up depressed. It’s a bummer as I was on a pretty good streak. Eight days without depression. Well, that’s a pretty good length of stability.I’m so used to mood swings, that I actually do get excited and thankful for the stable days I can string together. It’s a bummer though.
I was talking with my dear radio co-host Avi yesterday. He was depressed for many, many years and then after a lot of work, meds and therapy he got a lot better. He was depressed a few days ago and said, “It’s always so shocking when it comes back.”
It’s true. When I woke up this morning and it was here, I just thought.. oh crap.. here is is again. Time to use the program. So, I’m at my computer and I’m going to work on my new book- because if I don’t, it will only exacerbate the depressed.
Today is going to be a good day. Waking up depressed simply doesn’t mean I have to stay depressed!
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Julie
I jsut can’t seem to get rid of my negative thinking. I know EXACTLY what to do to alter it but i jsut can’t get myself to do it. I hate my life and i have no reason to hate the things in my life. My family is the best family in the world. They are so incredibly supportive and do anything to help me. I have friends. i have good things going for me yet i still stay away from people and hate my life. i don’t understand why? I hate what i am going throuhg with the medicine. That’s been bugging me lately because nothing works. I am just so sick of everything. I want to be happy. Not constantly roller coaster of emotions. and NOT ZOMBIE EITHER.