\u201cAre you manic Julie?\u201d said my\u00a0friend Marsha\u00a0when I just talked to her on the phone.<\/p>\n
Gosh darn it! I hate that question! (I used stronger language than gosh darn it!)She then said, \u201cI\u2019m sorry Julie. I always feel like I\u2019m the one with the bad news.\u201d<\/p>\n
I said, \u201cWell, you\u2019re using the\u00a0Health Cards\u00a0and being honest with me. I often need that if I\u2019m mildly manic. I just don\u2019t know if I am though. Maybe I\u2019m just excited because my hands are better and I can finally write again?\u201dI know that the above answer to her \u201care you manic\u201d question- means I\u2019m hypomanic. I ALWAYS try to justify the mania. Maybe it\u2019s just the real me! Maybe it\u2019s just that it\u2019s sunny outside. Maybe it\u2019s not what it seems!<\/p>\n
It\u2019s always what it seems. I know that if more than one person thinks I\u2019m manic- I\u2019m manic. It\u2019s not excitement that causes it. It\u2019s bipolar disorder. In other words, if I\u2019m excited and feel like having a beer in the afternoon and staying up all night with the wrong people, it\u2019s mania.\u00a0 I rarely drink outside of mania.<\/p>\n
Excitement is contained. It is a response to something. The kind of excitement I feel when I\u2019m manic is so beyond what non bipolar people feel. And I have to remember that and respect it when the people in my life point it out.<\/p>\n
$%#$%#
\nDarn it.
\nUnfair.<\/p>\n
It feels so good when compared to the terrible depression I often have.<\/p>\n
No fair!<\/p>\n
Do you have a mania plan? I know that mine keeps my relationships, bank account, drinking and decisions under control.<\/p>\n
Thank you Marsha<\/p>\n
Julie<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
\u201cAre you manic Julie?\u201d said my friend Marsha when I just talked to her on the phone.<\/p>\n
Gosh darn it! I hate that question! (I used stronger language than gosh darn it!)She then said, \u201cI\u2019m sorry Julie. I always feel like I\u2019m the one with the bad news.\u201d<\/p>\n
I said, \u201cWell, you\u2019re using the Health Cards and being honest with me. I often need that if I\u2019m mildly manic. I just don\u2019t know if I am though. Maybe I\u2019m just excited because my hands are better and I can finally write again?\u201dI know that the above answer to her \u201care you manic\u201d question- means I\u2019m hypomanic. I ALWAYS try to justify the mania. Maybe it\u2019s just the real me! Maybe it\u2019s just that it\u2019s sunny outside. Maybe it\u2019s not what it seems!<\/p>\n