{"id":776,"date":"2009-06-11T16:37:38","date_gmt":"2009-06-11T16:37:38","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/bipolar-mood-swings-and-the-beauty-of-a-rose\/"},"modified":"2018-05-15T10:01:18","modified_gmt":"2018-05-15T17:01:18","slug":"bipolar-mood-swings-and-the-beauty-of-a-rose","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/bipolar-mood-swings-and-the-beauty-of-a-rose\/","title":{"rendered":"bipolar mood swings and the beauty of a rose"},"content":{"rendered":"

Bipolar is so very weird. When I’m depressed I can look at this rose and see nothing of beauty. I’ve also had experiences where the beauty of something is painful because I feel so left out.<\/p>\n

With mania, the rose is too beautiful. I could look into it forever – which is not exactly true as when I’m manic I don’t do anything for very long. My attention would be grabbed by something even more beautiful.<\/p>\n

When my ex partner Ivan was really psychotic and in the hospital- I took him a rose- it had a lot of symbolic meaning to him- it was blood red- it caused pain- etc.<\/p>\n

Well, it’s pretty obvious that a rose isn’t just a rose is a rose…. \ud83d\ude09<\/p>\n

Today I want to just look at the rose for what it is. A beautiful flower.\u00a0 I live in Portland, Oregon- also known as the rose city. The roses here are stunning.\u00a0 My goal is to have a normal, stable and appreciative day. ( I can do it!)<\/p>\n

\u00a0Julie<\/p>\n

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Bipolar is so very weird. When I’m depressed I can look at this rose and see nothing of beauty. I’ve also had experiences where the beauty of something is painful because I feel so left out.<\/p>\n

With mania, the rose is too beautiful. I could look into it forever – which is not exactly true as when I’m manic I don’t do anything for very long. My attention would be grabbed by something even more beautiful.<\/p>\n

When my ex partner Ivan was really psychotic and in the hospital- I took him a rose- it had a lot of symbolic meaning to him- it was blood red- it caused pain- etc.<\/p>\n

Well, it’s pretty obvious that a rose isn’t just a rose is a rose…. \ud83d\ude09<\/p>\n

Today I want to just look at the rose for what it is. A beautiful flower. I live in Portland, Oregon- also known as the rose city. The roses here [ Read More ]<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_links_to":"","_links_to_target":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/776"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=776"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/776\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":11985,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/776\/revisions\/11985"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=776"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=776"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=776"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}