Bipolar Disorder? <\/p>\n
Ha. ha. ha. <\/p>\n
I haven\u2019t been stable for days. It\u2019s up and down all day long. You would think that after 15 years I would at least be used to it. I\u2019m not- I\u2019m resigned to it and I definitely know how to deal with it- but I\u2019ll never get used to it. I am not sure that\u2019s possible. Let\u2019s put it this way- I live with it. It\u2019s all you can do. <\/p>\n
I have a dear friend in town. I was upset because I wanted to see her and she had other obligations. I felt like a needy, whiny friend- but I kept it to myself as she is so dear to me and I know she cares about me. Of course, she did have time planned to be with me. And then after we had spent part of the day together- which was great! I felt overwhelmed and had to leave. It\u2019s so freaking stupid. Then I felt guilty for being over stimulated. Of course she totally understood and I will see her tomorrow. <\/p>\n
Lesson learned: For the great majority of time, I am very wrong when I assume what others are thinking. I get lonely and think that no one cares about me- which is ridiculous. I know I will have to be alone quite often- and I have to deal with it. <\/p>\n
And finally, I\u2019ve learned to absolutely not bring up my worries and feelings and hurts until I know the whole situation- my reaction is usually bipolar disorder blowing things way out of porportion. Instead of saying- why aren\u2019t you paying attention to me? I waited and realized she planned to see me all along. <\/p>\n
I hate what bipolar disorder does to my mind- I hate what it does to my emotions- but I now know how to control it enough to make sure my relationships stay strong. <\/p>\n
Julie <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Bipolar Disorder? <\/p>\n
Ha. ha. ha. <\/p>\n
I haven\u2019t been stable for days. It\u2019s up and down all day long. You would think that after 15 years I would at least be used to it. I\u2019m not- I\u2019m resigned to it and I definitely know how to deal with it- but I\u2019ll never get used to it. I am not sure that\u2019s possible. Let\u2019s put it this way- I live with it. It\u2019s all you can do. <\/p>\n
I have a dear friend in town. I was upset because I wanted to see her and she had other obligations. I felt like a needy, whiny friend- but I kept it to myself as she is so dear to me and I know she cares about me. Of course, she did have time planned to be with me. And then after we had spent part of the day together- which was great! I felt overwhelmed and [ Read More ]<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_links_to":"","_links_to_target":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/716"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=716"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/716\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":12007,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/716\/revisions\/12007"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=716"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=716"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=716"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}