I\u2019m in the middle of a very quick, exciting and completely up in the air book project.\u00a0 The publishing profession is very volatile, hit and miss, unsure, sometimes devastating and when it works, exhilarating and profitable.\u00a0 It’s hard to deal with bipolar disorder and work!<\/p>\n
The problem is that you literally can\u2019t control how things will turn out. But you keep trying.<\/p>\n
In the normal process, I turn in my ideas to my agent- she then contacts specific editors she thinks are a good fit for the project. I currently have an idea for a relationship book that\u2019s very exciting.\u00a0 An editor liked the idea and asked for a table of contents and a sample chapter- four days ago. I have been working on it pretty steadily and I can feel the effects:<\/p>\n
1. Too wound up and excited to sleep
\n2. Alternatively hopeful and fearful- which leads to anxiety
\n3. Irritated- massively irritated from the stress of having to work so quickly
\n4. Scared that it won\u2019t happen<\/p>\n
I feel lurking, overwhelming anxiety and hysteria in the background. I\u2019m getting the feeling I get when things are getting very overstimulating . My brain is shutting down a bit and I have to put off other projects in order to have enough mental health to keep going with the new book project. I then have to protect myself because I know for sure I will get depressed if it doesn\u2019t go through- even though it\u2019s normal in the business to have this uncertainty.<\/p>\n
My goal is to do as much as possible to keep myself in excellent mental health during this process. I will get plenty of sleep and remind myself that even if I get sick, the project can still get done with the same quality as it would when I\u2019m well. And most importantly, I will focus on the fact that I have an original idea that others find interesting.<\/p>\n
I\u2019ve spent every day of the past seven years getting well enough to work on projects such as this one! I don\u2019t want to mess up now.<\/p>\n
This is one of the reasons I haven\u2019t written as many blogs- or answered the questions I said I would answer. I am consolidating my mental tools.<\/p>\n
I love your comments, so keep sending them in!
\nJulie<\/p>\n
PS: I came very, very close but didn’t get the book deal. I handled it well.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I\u2019m in the middle of a very quick, exciting and completely up in the air book project. The publishing profession is very volatile, hit and miss, unsure, sometimes devastating and when it works, exhilarating and profitable. It’s hard to deal with bipolar disorder and work!<\/p>\n
The problem is that you literally can\u2019t control how things will turn out. But you keep trying.<\/p>\n
In the normal process, I turn in my ideas to my agent- she then contacts specific editors she thinks are a good fit for the project. I currently have an idea for a relationship book that\u2019s very exciting. An editor liked the idea and asked for a table of contents and a sample chapter- four days ago. I have been working on it pretty steadily and I can feel the effects:<\/p>\n