{"id":662,"date":"2015-06-15T00:56:55","date_gmt":"2015-06-15T07:56:55","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/2009\/03\/18\/bipolar-disorder-its-always-something\/"},"modified":"2018-05-15T09:56:49","modified_gmt":"2018-05-15T16:56:49","slug":"bipolar-disorder-its-always-something","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/bipolar-disorder-its-always-something\/","title":{"rendered":"A Bipolar Disorder Blast from the Past.. it’s always something!"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"Getting_Better_-_The_Beatles_(sheet_music)\"<\/a>This is a blog post from 2009. I’m sharing it today because it shows how far I have come and how far you can come when you get a management plan that works. I read this and realized that these work and\u00a0depression episodes\u00a0don’t\u00a0happen to me anymore. My depression, mania, anxiety and psychosis are always lurking, but they are under control. I have tools for the situations I describe below. I write about them in my books. I NEVER thought I would have the life I have now, but I do. I’m happy, stable and I CAN WORK!\u00a0<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n

From 2009<\/p>\n

I always know I\u2019m depressed if I wake up and suddenly hear an avalanche of negative thoughts.\u00a0 Sometimes I wake up and think- hmm, what fun things do I have to do today? Those are miracle days where I just get out of bed and look forward to the hours ahead.<\/p>\n

I had extreme trouble sleeping last night. True insomnia- it\u2019s so different from mania sleep issues. I had to take two ativan (A benzodiazepine\/anti anxiety med) \u2013 two ativan means I will get really tired this afternoon. I usually stick to one. But at least I finally got to sleep around 2:30 AM.<\/p>\n

This means I lost the hours of work I was going to do this morning. What can I do but just get on with it! I\u2019m lucky I didn\u2019t have a deadline this morning.<\/p>\n

I\u2019d rather be tired than depressed. I made a list of my plans for the day. I made one last night before I went to sleep as well. This helps if I wake up depressed!<\/p>\n

Have you ever thought that IT\u2019S ALWAYS SOMETHING WITH BIPOLAR DISORDER! and it always helps to get out of bed before the thoughts take over. I did that this morning and vacuumed my room. I’ve been upset with myself for weeks because I didn’t vacuum my room. It takes more time to worry than to DO.<\/p>\n

Julie<\/p>\n

*********<\/p>\n

2015 update: We can get better! I lived with this kind of depression for way too long. There is a way out. It doesn’t have to be like this and life can be good.<\/p>\n

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\"Getting_Better_-_The_Beatles_(sheet_music)\"<\/a>This is a blog post from 2009. I’m sharing it today because it shows how far I have come and how far you can come when you get a management plan that works. I read this and realized that these work and depression episodes don’t happen to me anymore. My depression, mania, anxiety and psychosis are always lurking, but they are under control. I have tools for the situations I describe below. I write about them in my books. I NEVER thought I would have the life I have now, but I do. I’m happy, stable and I CAN WORK! <\/p>\n

From 2009<\/p>\n

I always know I\u2019m depressed if I wake up and suddenly hear an avalanche of negative thoughts. Sometimes I wake up and think- hmm, what fun things [ Read More ]<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_links_to":"","_links_to_target":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/662"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=662"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/662\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":11201,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/662\/revisions\/11201"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=662"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=662"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=662"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}