I mean that! They literally make no sense.<\/p>\n
I just finished a book proposal for my next book. It was a huge undertaking and I was literally elated when I hit the send button on my email.<\/p>\n
\u00a0In the past, I would get depressed when I finished a large project. This time, I was even happy the next day! I thought to myself- wow, maybe the depression skipped me this time!<\/p>\n
Then I realized I was slightly manic- I wrote about it below. This upset me as it’s not fair… I always say it’s not fair and I sound like a little baby- but it’s not fair!<\/p>\n
Last night, around 4PM I went straight down. This was 24 hours after sending the proposal. So I guess I didn’t slip by the depression after all. It was a bad down swing. At first I wasn’t sure why I was depressed. I kept saying to myself- this isn’t real! You felt great yesterday! all of these worried thoughts aren’t real.<\/p>\n
And of course they weren’t real. I took a walk and listened to a funny radio show- Wait Wait Don’t Tell Me from NPR- and I talked myself out of that depression the best I could. I then went to a movie and wrote positive and realistic thoughts in my journal. I read my depression Health Card.<\/p>\n
\u00a0The downswing was gone by the time I went to bed.<\/p>\n
I know that my brain chemistry is 100% affected by a negative trigger such as an argument with my sister in law- unfortunately, my brain chemistry gets messed up by something extremely positive as well.<\/p>\n
Have you ever had a down swing after experiencing something really great? Julie<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I mean that! They literally make no sense.<\/p>\n
I just finished a book proposal for my next book. It was a huge undertaking and I was literally elated when I hit the send button on my email.<\/p>\n
In the past, I would get depressed when I finished a large project. This time, I was even happy the next day! I thought to myself- wow, maybe the depression skipped me this time!<\/p>\n
Then I realized I was slightly manic- I wrote about it below. This upset me as it’s not fair… I always say it’s not fair and I sound like a little baby- but it’s not fair!<\/p>\n
Last night, around 4PM I went straight down. This was 24 hours after sending the proposal. So I guess I didn’t slip by the depression after all. It was a bad down swing. At first I wasn’t sure why I was depressed. I kept saying to myself- [ Read More ]<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_links_to":"","_links_to_target":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/644"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=644"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/644\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":12053,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/644\/revisions\/12053"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=644"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=644"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=644"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}