Yesterday was a tough day\u2026<\/p>\n
And I woke up with IT again this morning.\u00a0 I call depression IT because I want to remind myself that IT is\u00a0 not me! The language of depression is so predictable-\u00a0 how does it know where to hurt me the most!\u00a0 I was pretty sick yesterday, but I kept going as I always do. It was hard to work and I know my mom was worried about me. I managed to feel better by the time I went to sleep. Bipolar disorder can be such a vicious illness simply because it causes you to examine all that is going WRONG in your life over and over again.<\/p>\n
\u00a0When I woke up too early this morning, my brain did a cascade of thoughts regarding the two people in my life who are causing me stress. It just wouldn\u2019t stop on its own, so I made it stop. Yes, I am having trouble with these people- one is my brother- but the trouble is really not on my side. They are having trouble in their lives and I feel left out.\u00a0 My friend John D. and I went to happy hour the other night and talked about how hard it is to really, really find the feelings behind thoughts and actions.\u00a0 My feelings around these two people are real- bipolar makes me obsess and over think the situation. I don\u2019t have to listen. They are unhappy- I am not sure how I fit into that! I feel excluded because I see them making time for other people. That is their choice and to be honest, I\u2019m not sure they realize what they are doing. It\u2019s up to me to decide what to do from my side of things. I can\u2019t let depression make decisions for me. Ever.<\/p>\n
julie<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Yesterday was a tough day\u2026<\/p>\n
And I woke up with IT again this morning. I call depression IT because I want to remind myself that IT is not me! The language of depression is so predictable- how does it know where to hurt me the most! I was pretty sick yesterday, but I kept going as I always do. It was hard to work and I know my mom was worried about me. I managed to feel better by the time I went to sleep. Bipolar disorder can be such a vicious illness simply because it causes you to examine all that is going WRONG in your life over and over again.<\/p>\n
When I woke up too early this morning, my brain did a cascade of thoughts regarding the two people in my life who are causing me stress. It just wouldn\u2019t stop on its own, so I made it stop. Yes, I am [ Read More ]<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_links_to":"","_links_to_target":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/629"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=629"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/629\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":12066,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/629\/revisions\/12066"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=629"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=629"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=629"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}