It\u2019s a great night when I can get to sleep without sleep meds. I go through long periods when I\u2019m fine and then I have nights where I simply won\u2019t sleep unless I take my Ativan. It\u2019s not that I don\u2019t want to sleep- and it\u2019s not that I\u2019m manic. I just won\u2019t sleep. I just lie there. Then I start the brain tug of war:<\/p>\n
Brain #1\u00a0 Julie, you really should be able to just go to sleep on your own. Other people don\u2019t need meds to sleep. You will be too tired in the morning if you take the Ativan.\u00a0 Just keep trying to get to sleep on your own! Just put on some calm music. Smell some lavender!<\/p>\n
Brain #2\u00a0 Julie, this is not a joke. You have bipolar disorder and that means you have sleep problems. TAKE YOUR MEDS! It\u2019s not like you\u2019re drinking wine or smoking pot to sleep. These are MEDICATIONS!\u00a0 You have never taken more medications than needed in your life. Why do you always have to make this so difficult? It\u2019s 2AM. Stop trying to talk yourself out of it and take your meds!<\/p>\n
I can tell tonight is one of these nights. I will probably get in bed and listen to something calming and then still be wide awake. But I know myself. I have to at least give myself a chance to fall asleep on my own.\u00a0 I did all I am supposed to do for a good night\u2019s sleep. I got home early from karaoke. I didn\u2019t overeat. I wasn\u2019t in cigarette smoke- no smoking in Oregon finally! and I am not watching TV or a DVD right before bed. But it doesn\u2019t look good.. oh well! I have the Ativan ready!<\/p>\n
Julie<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
It\u2019s a great night when I can get to sleep without sleep meds. I go through long periods when I\u2019m fine and then I have nights where I simply won\u2019t sleep unless I take my Ativan. It\u2019s not that I don\u2019t want to sleep- and it\u2019s not that I\u2019m manic. I just won\u2019t sleep. I just lie there. Then I start the brain tug of war:<\/p>\n
Brain #1 Julie, you really should be able to just go to sleep on your own. Other people don\u2019t need meds to sleep. You will be too tired in the morning if you take the Ativan. Just keep trying to get to sleep on your own! Just put on some calm music. Smell some lavender!<\/p>\n
Brain #2 Julie, this is not a joke. You have bipolar disorder and that means you have sleep problems. TAKE YOUR MEDS! It\u2019s not like you\u2019re drinking wine or smoking pot to sleep. These [ Read More ]<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_links_to":"","_links_to_target":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/610"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=610"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/610\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":12077,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/610\/revisions\/12077"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=610"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=610"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=610"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}