Over the past few years, I’ve worked daily to free myself from the triggers that make me ill.\u00a0 I found myself in one of those triggers last week- and it wasn’t really my fault- but I did walk into something that has made me sick in the past.\u00a0 My therapist was smart- she said, “Julie, think of the consequences of your choices, not just want you feel you should do in the moment.”<\/p>\n
\u00a0It’s hard to have bipolar disorder. I want to be someone who can do things like other people! I want to be able to do something and then walk away from it without going into bipolar symptoms.<\/p>\n
Here is what happened.\u00a0 An important person from my past became very ill about six months ago. When I offered my help, he basically went into his typical behavior and told me I was overreacting.\u00a0 There is no question I was not overacting. It’s just his way of handling stress.<\/p>\n
This of course made me ill. I worked on it and decided to send him my best and move on.\u00a0 A few weeks ago, I started to think about him a lot. I just felt that something must be wrong.\u00a0\u00a0 I finally sent him a text this week to see how he was. I thought about this carefully and decided that though he has caused me constant trouble in the past, he obviously needed my support at this time. I was right- he is ill again and will go in for surgery next week.<\/p>\n
The problem is that this simple text on my part brought up so many past memories – and his reply- thanks for writing- I appreciate your support- \u00a0I will be fine- did cause me trouble.<\/p>\n
Overall, I did something that has made me feel bad in the past.<\/p>\n
It is always a struggle for me to decided what behavior is ok and what behavior will cause a mood swing. It’s not a fun way to live, but I can say that these situations are rare now. I think a long time before I do something. I still make mistakes- but they thoughtful mistakes! ha ha.<\/p>\n
I don’t regret contacting my ex. He is a good person going through a tough time.<\/p>\n
Now, I am a good person going through a tough time- so I have to take care of myself!<\/p>\n
Julie<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Over the past few years, I’ve worked daily to free myself from the triggers that make me ill. I found myself in one of those triggers last week- and it wasn’t really my fault- but I did walk into something that has made me sick in the past. My therapist was smart- she said, “Julie, think of the consequences of your choices, not just want you feel you should do in the moment.”<\/p>\n
It’s hard to have bipolar disorder. I want to be someone who can do things like other people! I want to be able to do something and then walk away from it without going into bipolar symptoms.<\/p>\n
Here is what happened. An important person from my past became very ill about six months ago. When I offered my help, he basically went into his typical behavior and told me I was overreacting. There is no question I was not overacting. It’s [ Read More ]<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_links_to":"","_links_to_target":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/498"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=498"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/498\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":12141,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/498\/revisions\/12141"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=498"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=498"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=498"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}