{"id":4227,"date":"2011-10-09T14:42:35","date_gmt":"2011-10-09T21:42:35","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/?p=4227"},"modified":"2018-05-15T09:59:21","modified_gmt":"2018-05-15T16:59:21","slug":"4227","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/4227\/","title":{"rendered":"Bipolar Depression- Hello darkness my old friend…."},"content":{"rendered":"

I was very depressed a few days ago and the only way I can decribe it is Debilitating Depression<\/strong><\/p>\n

I would certainly never call darkness a friend, but the Simon and Garfunkel song gets the mood right.<\/p>\n

The depression was so bad I could hardly hold my head up.\u00a0 When I get depressed like this, I sit in a chair and put my head in my hands. A cacophony of terrible thoughts, sounds (often songs) and an unbelievable feeling of DOOM crawl in to every cell in my body.<\/p>\n

This is the kind of depression that keeps people in bed for months.<\/p>\n

But\u2026 I knew what it was and started to fight and fight and fight and told myself- you will get out of this Julie. You will start now.<\/p>\n

Here is what I did:<\/p>\n

1.\u00a0 Forced the real me to talk to the depressed me.<\/strong>\u00a0<\/p>\n

Julie. Get up. This is bipolar.\u00a0 Don\u2019t forget that. Get up Julie. Use your Get it Done tips. Don\u2019t listen Julie. Don\u2019t listen.\u00a0 You will have a future- there is no what you are hearing is true. Think of what you are hearing. It\u2019s a lie. Now get up. Get up!<\/p>\n

2. Focused on what had to change in the next few hours so that I could at least get it to calm down.<\/strong> \u00a0Yes, it took the rest of the day. But I know that a few years ago is was days and before that- it was months.\u00a0<\/p>\n

3. Looked at my med choices honestly.<\/strong> I\u2019ve recently moved and my stuff,including my bottles of Lamictal (generic name Lamotrigine) is all over the place. I can fix that quickly. I am mad at myself for letting this happen. It’ dangerous.<\/p>\n

And you?<\/p>\n

If\u00a0 you are depressed like this- the debilitating depression- you can get through it. It lies-<\/strong> so don\u2019t listen. Take action. Your body feels depressed but it can still move.\u00a0\u00a0 One step to get you out of the bed or to turn off the TV or to walk about your door is enough.<\/em>
\nJulie \u2013 no depression today- Fast<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I was very depressed a few days ago and the only way I can decribe it is Debilitating Depression<\/p>\n

I would certainly never call darkness a friend, but the Simon and Garfunkel song gets the mood right.<\/p>\n

The depression was so bad I could hardly hold my head up. When I get depressed like this, I sit in a chair and put my head in my hands. A cacophony of terrible thoughts, sounds (often songs) and an unbelievable feeling of DOOM crawl in to every cell in my body.<\/p>\n

This is the kind of depression that keeps people in bed for months.<\/p>\n

But\u2026 I knew what it was and started to fight and fight and fight and told myself- you will get out of this Julie. You will start now.<\/p>\n

Here is what I did:<\/p>\n

1. Forced the real me to talk to the depressed me. <\/p>\n

Julie. Get up. This is bipolar. Don\u2019t forget [ Read More ]<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_links_to":"","_links_to_target":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4227"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=4227"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4227\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":11643,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4227\/revisions\/11643"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=4227"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=4227"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=4227"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}