{"id":309,"date":"2012-08-20T05:02:55","date_gmt":"2012-08-20T12:02:55","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/2008\/08\/05\/bipolar-excitement-and-downswings\/"},"modified":"2018-05-15T09:58:21","modified_gmt":"2018-05-15T16:58:21","slug":"bipolar-excitement-and-downswings","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/bipolar-excitement-and-downswings\/","title":{"rendered":"Bipolar Disorder: Excitement and downswings!"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"\"<\/a>I had a wonderful weekend at a writer\u2019s conference. Because of this, I knew I had to be prepared for a downswing. It was inevitable.\u00a0 Bipolar disorder doesn\u2019t care if I had a good time \u2013 it just noticed that things were different and that I was in an exciting environment.<\/p>\n

I woke up slightly down and thought- oh well, I can get through this. Then I felt better! But it didn\u2019t last. Within a few hours the bad thoughts started. First: I wish I were dead. And then: You\u2019re Pathetic!<\/p>\n

I always hear the \u2018you\u2019re pathetic\u2019 voice when I get stressed. The \u2018I wish I were dead\u2019 is an old friend as well. One gets used to these stress companions.<\/p>\n

That doesn\u2019t make it easy, but at least I know my enemy. The weekend was amazing as it was the first time I was able to go to a conference and not get sick during the conference! I had hardly any paranoia! This is wonderful.<\/p>\n

The conference reminded me that I\u2019ve gotten so much better over the past few years. I\u2019m grateful.<\/p>\n

Julie<\/p>\n

PS: That’s me signing books after my presentation. And yes, I cut my long hair! Yes it is me! I am going to let it grow back.\u00a0 It looks too much like Suze Orman. HaHa<\/p>\n

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\"\"<\/a>I had a wonderful weekend at a writer\u2019s conference. Because of this, I knew I had to be prepared for a downswing. It was inevitable. Bipolar disorder doesn\u2019t care if I had a good time \u2013 it just noticed that things were different and that I was in an exciting environment.<\/p>\n

I woke up slightly down and thought- oh well, I can get through this. Then I felt better! But it didn\u2019t last. Within a few hours the bad thoughts started. First: I wish I were dead. And then: You\u2019re Pathetic!<\/p>\n

I always hear the \u2018you\u2019re pathetic\u2019 voice when I get stressed. The \u2018I wish I were dead\u2019 is an old friend as well. One gets used to these stress companions.<\/p>\n

That doesn\u2019t make it easy, but at least I know my enemy. The [ Read More ]<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_links_to":"","_links_to_target":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/309"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=309"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/309\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":11486,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/309\/revisions\/11486"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=309"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=309"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=309"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}