I’ve been stable for a week. This is a miracle for me as I usually have a mood swing every day.<\/p>\n
My mind kept saying, “You will never get depressed again Julie! It’s gone forever!”<\/p>\n
Almost 30 years of depression and my mind still doesn’t get it!\u00a0 I am open to being well forever. It’s always my goal- but so far, the depression always comes back.<\/p>\n
I was ready for it in my mind, but when it starts I’m always so mad, mad, MAD!<\/p>\n
The past week has been so wonderful. It wasn’t mania and my mind wasn’t mean to me. I worked as much as I could. I truly like my work, especially the family and partner coaching. It has meaning for me.<\/p>\n
But this morning\u00a0 the big D was\u00a0 back full force. I woke up at 4:00 AM and it started.<\/p>\n
“What is the point of getting up Julie? Every day is the same. Work for money- that isn’t worth it. No hope for the future. Things are the same as always. There is no point in getting up. You’re lonely.”<\/p>\n
It’s such a pervasive feeling. It’s soaks up all of my cells.<\/p>\n
I knew my management skills had to kick in. I called up my inner drill sargeant. “Get out of bed Julie! Don’t listen.” I jumped up. In the bath I said, “No wallowing in misery Julie! Get out of the\u00a0bath and get dressed!”<\/p>\n
It propelled me into getting ready to go to work. I’m at my office for the day now. Starbucks \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n
And I’m working. The depression is better. I kicked it out of my body through action!<\/p>\n
Julie<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I’ve been stable for a week. This is a miracle for me as I usually have a mood swing every day.<\/p>\n
My mind kept saying, “You will never get depressed again Julie! It’s gone forever!”<\/p>\n
Almost 30 years of depression and my mind still doesn’t get it! I am open to being well forever. It’s always my goal- but so far, the depression always comes back.<\/p>\n
I was ready for it in my mind, but when it starts I’m always so mad, mad, MAD!<\/p>\n
The past week has been so wonderful. It wasn’t mania and my mind wasn’t mean to me. I worked as much as I could. I truly like my work, especially the family and partner coaching. It has meaning for me.<\/p>\n
But this morning the big D was back full force. I woke up at 4:00 AM and it started.<\/p>\n