Bipolar Disorder Depression Sucks- that is for sure.<\/p>\n
I was very sick today. It always shocks me how debilitating depression can be.<\/p>\n
For much of the day I literally had trouble getting out of my chair. It felt like the batteries in my body were dead.<\/p>\n
I desperately wanted and needed to work. I have so much to do- too much email and a lot of deadlines. I want to be a normal worker.\u00a0 I forced myself to get in my car and go to the library, but when I got there I was so uncomfortable I left. Finally, I put in a DVD and rested my brain. It was in what I call the civil war- you should do this, no do this, no do this, you\u2019re a poor worker because you don\u2019t do anything, you need to work, I can\u2019t work today. On and on.<\/p>\n
It\u2019s awful. Isn\u2019t it. If you have bipolar disorder, you\u2019ve been there for sure.<\/p>\n
I hate it. So, I remembered what I say in all of my books- if I want to get things done when I\u2019m depressed, there are strategies I know will work. I just have to use them.<\/p>\n
So I called my mom and I said, \u201cI\u2019m sick. I\u2019m not functioning at all. Can you come over and help me clean my room?\u201d<\/p>\n
She came over and I immediately felt better. I kept having to sit down, but I at least got up and helped clean. I got something accomplished and it helped reduce my depression.<\/p>\n
It\u2019s almost time for bed, but I\u2019ve reached my goal. I always want to go to bed feeling better than when I woke up. I\u2019m crying a bit while I write this- but it\u2019s ok. Being able to write is a real plus on a very difficult day.<\/p>\n
Julie<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Bipolar Disorder Depression Sucks- that is for sure.<\/p>\n
I was very sick today. It always shocks me how debilitating depression can be.<\/p>\n
For much of the day I literally had trouble getting out of my chair. It felt like the batteries in my body were dead.<\/p>\n
I desperately wanted and needed to work. I have so much to do- too much email and a lot of deadlines. I want to be a normal worker. I forced myself to get in my car and go to the library, but when I got there I was so uncomfortable I left. Finally, I put in a DVD and rested my brain. It was in what I call the civil war- you should do this, no do this, no do this, you\u2019re a poor worker because you don\u2019t do anything, you need to work, I can\u2019t work today. On and on.<\/p>\n