{"id":12575,"date":"2018-10-31T18:40:26","date_gmt":"2018-11-01T01:40:26","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/?p=12575"},"modified":"2018-10-31T18:40:48","modified_gmt":"2018-11-01T01:40:48","slug":"bipolar-euphoric-mania-is-the-greatest-feeling-in-the-world-but-im-kicking-it-out-the-door-forever","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/bipolar-euphoric-mania-is-the-greatest-feeling-in-the-world-but-im-kicking-it-out-the-door-forever\/","title":{"rendered":"Bipolar Euphoric Mania is the Greatest Feeling in the World, but I’m kicking it out the door forever…."},"content":{"rendered":"
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OMG, I love euphoric bipolar mania so much. It is so comforting. I’ve been manic off and on for almost 40 years. I wish I could stay manic forever. I understand this mania and know how to use it to my advantage. I know how to manipulate this mania. I know how to get any man, any job and any book deal I want with this mania. So why on earth would I stop the mania?<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Here is the reality of mania when it isn’t stopped the minute I realize it’s here. <\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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1. Pregnancy due to sex in a bathroom at a party with a stranger. <\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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2. STDs. Herpes. <\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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3. People who actually know me, hate it. I’m aggressive, loud, impatient, impetuous, forceful, unkind, aggressive and egotistical when I feel this GREAT. My friend Karen says, “I can always tell when you’re manic because you’re really annoying.” <\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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4. I don’t sleep. This confuses the physical body and leads to more physical illness. <\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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5. I make promises I can’t keep. <\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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6. I am unkind and if in a relationship, I will leave because you know, the grass is greener! <\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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7. I don’t give a flying FCUK about anyone but myself even though I appear cheerful and the life of the party. <\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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8. It always, without exception turns into dysphoric mania and then depression. <\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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I could make a list as long as a football field. <\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Almost ten years ago now, I said no to all forms of mania. Even the mania that makes me feel like a GOD. <\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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What about you? Are you ready to see mania as illness? Are you ready to finally say yes to stability?<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Julie<\/strong><\/span><\/em><\/h1>\n<\/div>\n
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I\u2019m in Starbucks. I know I\u2019m hypomanic. In front of me is a man wearing a soccer uniform. It\u2019s obvious he has just come off the pitch and is getting some after-game refreshment. I look at the back of his head and my eyes roam down his body. When I reach the back of his legs, I have the thought,<\/em><\/p>\n

\u201cI\u2019m going to get down on my hands and knees and lick his calves.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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I’m serious about not letting mania in my life. Here is an article from my Psychology Today blog called Bipolar, Hypersexual and Celibate.\u00a0<\/a><\/div>\n
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\"\" OMG, I love euphoric bipolar mania so much. It is so comforting. I’ve been manic off and on for almost 40 years. I wish I could stay manic forever. I understand this mania and know how to use it to my advantage. I know how to manipulate this mania. I know how to get any man, any job and any book deal I want with this mania. So why on earth would I stop the mania? Here is the reality of mania when it isn’t stopped the minute I realize it’s here. 1. Pregnancy due to sex in a bathroom at a party with a stranger. 2. STDs. Herpes. 3. People who actually know me, hate it. I’m aggressive, loud, impatient, impetuous, forceful, unkind, aggressive and egotistical when I [ Read More ]<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":12422,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_links_to":"","_links_to_target":""},"categories":[],"tags":[795],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12575"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=12575"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12575\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":12577,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12575\/revisions\/12577"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/12422"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=12575"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=12575"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bipolarhappens.com\/bhblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=12575"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}