What Does Full Blown Hypersexual Mania Feel Like? (And why do you want to avoid it?)

by Julie A. Fast

***WARNING** I’m showing a graphic video here that is sexual in nature to make a point about hyper sexual mania. Please think before you click if you’re not into this kind of music. 

It’s never easy to find a visual representation of what mania feels like. It’s often so out of control and so internal, that an outward expression is usually too tame to show what happens.

I love the song Turn Down for What by DJ Snake and Lil John.  It has a good beat. I give it a 9 out of ten. HA!

Dance music (EDM) is the music that comes the closest to describing what I hear in my head and feel in my body when I’m really euphoric. The video below actually shows it.  Hyper sexuality ruins so many relationships. I do see the humor in this video and don’t feel they are trying to depict mania, but they have done just that!

Just like in the end of this vide, we don’t survive these massive episodes without casualties. We will alway fuel them with drinking, drugs and staying up as late as possible. I got myself into the most dangerous situations you can imagine- all over the world- due to this mania. I can say that my life is not as exciting now, but I also know that mania will never get me killed.

Please, please, please take full blown mania seriously. It ruins us. It ruins our relationships. It gives us STDs and even though there is no better feeling in the world when it’s happening, it NEVER ENDS WELL.



Ask Julie A. Fast: How do I tell someone I have bipolar disorder?

A great question about talking openly about #bipolar a reader on my  Julie A. FAst Facebook page:
Julie, I know you mention a lot to share this with family and friends Julie A. so that they can be more supportive…and I have. But I have to say for myself that I usually regret it. I find that who ever I am telling either finds it too heavy or later they will use it against me somehow and then that compounds the emotional roller coaster that I may already be on. What am I doing wrong?
First off, you are assuming you are doing something wrong. That means you tend to turn on yourself when others disappoint you. I am exactly the same. Work on that part of yourself first. The Four Agreements book really helped me with this, though it is often a struggle for those of us who tend towards depression and paranoia.
You are doing nothing wrong. You are expecting the people in your life to know what to do. How you tell the story truly matters. Here is an example.
Hi guys. As you may know, there is an illness shared by millions and millions of people around the world called bipolar disorder. It’s a genetic illness that affects a person’s ability to regulate moods. I have bipolar disorder and would love to talk with you more about the illness if you are interested. If you find this is too much for you, just let me know and we can find other topics to talk about. If you would like to know how you can help me find stability so that I can be a great friend and family member let me know.
Family and friends are not wired to automatically help an ill person. They don’t know what to do. Much of the rejection I see is fear. “I don’t know what to say, so I will say nothing.” Then, the prejudices they were raised with come to the front and they latch on to them as they feel guilty about doing nothing. Family is genetic, but your chosen family can be from a group of people who do understand you. It doesn’t mean you cut out the people who don’t understand. Let them be who they are. But from now on, cultivate friends who do want to understand.


The Health Cards Treatment System for Bipolar addresses this dilemma when it comes to asking for help in managing mood swings.

Bipolar and Strong

What is it like to have chronic bipolar disorder? Imagine having days where you struggle every minute. Not just a few times a day, but all day, minute by minute.

Imagine sitting down to work and crying before you even open your computer and you don’t know why! Nothing has happened!

Imagine wanting to be in a relationship, but the obsessions you have the minute someone talks to you are so uncomfortable, you are much happier staying single.

Imagine looking in the mirror and seeing your SELF, but knowing that you are not the only person in control. Instead, there is a puppet master called bipolar who will control what you do unless you are unbelievably self aware and abnormally strong.

This is life with chronic bipolar. I live it every day and have lived it every day for most of my adult life.

There is something in me that keeps going. I hope you can find that part of yourself as well. We can be stronger than this illness, but let’s be honest. For some of us- depending on the type of bipolar we have and what meds and other experiences (epigenetic) have carved out our lives, we truly struggle.

I will not give up. My books can help you find a way to manage this illness. Or, find another program that works. But you can’t do it alone. Don’t think you can. It takes a team and it takes a plan.

We can do this!


What is Bipolar Disorder?



Bipolar disorder is an illness that appears very, very confusing when you have just been diagnosed or if someone you love has a possible or official diagnosis.

Here is some great news. The illness is NOT difficult to understand once you know the basics.

The following is an excerpt from my book Take Charge of Bipolar Disorder: A 4-Step Plan for You and Your Loved Ones to Manage the Illness and Create Lasting Stability.

I’ve written books on the topic of bipolar disorder for over ten years since my partner of 10 years was diagnosed in 1994 and I was diagnosed in 1995.

  Take Charge of Bipolar Disorder is the book I recommend for learning the basics of the illness, especially if you have just been diagnosed. It’s great for family members, partners and health care professionals as well.

The following is a technical explanation of bipolar disorder from the introduction to Take Charge of Bipolar Disorder.

An Explanation of Bipolar Disorder

Bipolar disorder is a mood disorder. Mood disorders include bipolar disorder and depression. Although symptoms can overlap with those of other mental illnesses, mood disorders are different, for example from schizophrenia, which is a psychotic disorder and borderline personality disorder, which is a personality disorder. If you give people an explanation of bipolar disorder, you can tell them that it’s a mood disorder that affects the chemicals in your brain and causes change in moods that are often not normal responses to outside events. More technically, bipolar disorder is a genetically transmitted medical illness that affects brain chemistry. It results in abnormal regulation of never cells that are responsible for emotional regulation. This abnormality in brain chemistry leads to difficulties in controlling strong emotions and periodically causes intense episodes of either mania or depression as well as a wide variety of other symptoms including anxiety, ADHD symptoms, psychosis and sleep disturbances.


And now for a basic explanation of the symptoms of the illness:

Bipolar I (one) and Bipolar II (two).

There are two main types of bipolar disorder: Bipolar disorder I (one) and bipolar disorder II (two). The main difference between the two is the type of mania a person experiences.

It is very important to note that mania must be present at some point before a person can be diagnosed with bipolar disorder. There are not exceptions.

Bipolar I has full blown mania. Bipolar II has hypomania.

If you have a diagnosis, you need to know what type of the illness you have as the medications used are quite different.

What is Rapid Cycling?

Though the symptoms of the illness (described below) stay the same, the frequency and duration of mood swings differs greatly in people with the illness. A person has rapid cycling if they have three or more mood swings a year. Some people with the illness, like myself can have dozens or more mood swings a day.  Research shows that 20% of people with the illness has rapid cycling. In my experience, I feel the numbers are much higher.

There are two main mood swings in bipolar disorder: depression and mania. Here are more excerpts from Take Charge of Bipolar  Disorder:

What is Bipolar Depression? ‘

Depression is much more than sadness and unhappiness. .. Most people with bipolar depression have dozens of symptoms of depression. Here are just a few symptoms of bipolar disorder. Check the ones that you (or your loved one) experiences:

  • Sadness, unhappiness, feelings of despair and hopelessness.
  • Irritability, frustration, low tolerance and anger.
  • Low self esteem, feeling worthless or inadequate, loss of self confidence.
  • Negative, pessimistic thinking. A bleak view of yourself, current life circumstances, and the future.
  • Suicidal thoughts.
  • Poor memory and concentration.
  • Neediness.
  • Anxiety. (90% of people with bipolar depression have anxiety.)
  • Feeling easily overwhelmed.
  • Sleep changes from either sleeping too much or agitated sleep.
  • Being overly emotional, crying easily or getting angry easily.
  • Brain racing and looping, one thought or a group of thoughts that keep going through your mind over and over again.

(There is a more comprehensive list of bipolar depression symptoms in Take Charge of Bipolar Disorder.)

What is Mania?

Full blown mania and hypomania share most of the symptoms below- but in differing degrees. One other difference is that those with full blown mania have a high incidence of psychosis when there is a strong manic episode.

Mania is a chemically elevated mood that can be either euphoric or dysphoric (also called expansive mania, agitated mania or mixed mania). Full blown mania often leads to severe social impairment and occupational dysfunctioning and usually requires hostpitalization.

Hypomania is also described as an abnormal or persistently elevated, expansive or irritable mood. (This is the dysphoric mania.) Hypomanic mania if often of a short duration, but can last for months. The difference is that although mania and hypomania have an identical list of characteristic symptoms (with psychosis being the exception), the disturbance caused by hypomania is not usually severe enough to result in marked impairment in social or occupational functioning or to require hospitalization. Though there are exceptions, especially with euphoric mania.

Manic and hypomanic episodes often begin suddenly, with a rapid escalations of symptoms over a few days.

The following lists a few symptoms of bipolar mania. Take Charge has a very comprehensive list:

Euphoric mania:

  • Feeling great no matter what happens.
  • A profound feeling of physical well being.
  • Increased self esteem or grandiosity. ( This can be with psychotic mania as well.)
  • Decreased need for sleep without being tired the next days. For some this is sleeping 4-5 hours a night, for others it’s not sleeping at all.
  • Talkativeness and rapid speech. Pressured speech where you can’t let others talk.

Dysphoric (agitated) Mania:

  • Hyperactivity, restlessness or agitation.
  • Both euphoric and dysphoric mania:
  • Talkativeness and rapid speech. Pressured speech where you can’t let others talk.
  • Increased use of alcohol and drugs. Eating usually decreases.
  • Increased sexual desire.
  • Poor judgment and engaging in high-risk behaviors: reckless driving, excessive spending sprees, gambling, giving away large sums of money.
  • Inability to see that you’re ill.


Mania can be ignited by the use of antidepressants, stimulants (ADHD medications) light therapy and drugs such as steroids (cortisol, etc.) Anti depressants and stimulants can be used along with a mood stabilizer, but they have to be carefully monitored for mania symptoms.

Other Symptoms of Bipolar Disorder

The final symptoms of bipolar disorder include psychosis, anxiety and irritated, anger aggression and violent behavior.  These symptoms can lead to paranoia, OCD and cognitive problems such as those found in ADHD. Take Charge of Bipolar Disorder has an extensive list of these symptoms. Bipolar disorder is not just mania and depression, so a knowledge of the above symptoms is essential.

The Good News

When symptoms of bipolar disorder appear to be random and chaotic, with no apparent rhyme or reason, it’s easy to feel overwhelmed. It’s important that you understand all of the possible symptoms of bipolar disorder and come to see them as common and even predictable manifestations of bipolar disorder. Not only can this take the mystery out of the experience of bipolar disorder episodes, but it can also help you communicate clearly to your health care professional when particular symptoms emerge. Finally, knowing the nature of these symptoms is also a necessary starting point for developing a rational treatment plan.

(A side note. If you care about someone with the illness and they are in denial, can’t see they are ill or are hospitalized at this time, learning all you can about the illness will give you the information needed to recognize bipolar symptoms so that you can help a loved one get into treatment.)

Knowledge Matters

Learning about bipolar disorder puts you in control and helps you become a participant in your own healing, instead of just a spectator to the professionals who manage your medications. Knowledge really is power. The more you know, the more likely you are to remind yourself that this is just an illness that needs management, instead of feeling that it’s some personal failing on your part because your emotions go all over the place.

*end excerpt*

Take Charge of Bipolar Disorder is such a wonderful book for learning the basics of the illness and how it can be successfully treated and managed.

If you’re overwhelmed, Take Charge of Bipolar Disorder will answer the basic questions about bipolar disorder symptoms, the medications used to treat the illness and how to successful manage this illness in all areas of life.

Take Charge of Bipolar Disorder is available on amazon.com (where is has been one of the top books on bipolar disorder for over five years. Here is a link to the book on amazon.com:

Take Charge of Bipolar Disorder on amazon.com

It is also available in my treatment system for bipolar disorder from the following link. If you scroll down to the bottom of the page, you will see the books in the package.

Julie’s treatment system package

We can all get better and family members, partners, friends and health care professionals can learn to help.



Do you Suffer from Bipolar Distortion?

There is a band called Social Distortion. There is distortion in engineering and music, photography and video. And then there is #bipolar distortion? Do you suffer from bipolar distortion?
I do! I have a bad case of this nasty condition.
1. I truly believe that no one loves me when I’m depressed.
2. I feel left out and pushed aside in life when I am depressed.
3. I hear things differently- the words I hear are actually distorted by my brain. “I’m busy this week Julie.” turns into, “I no longer find you interesting as a person.”
WTF! WTH! Really!
4. I believe that I’m a bad person and no one wants to be with me, so what is the point of trying to be a good person. I will always fail.
5. I believe that the world is having fun and I’m not. I’m left out. I don’t belong.
Distortion is dangerous.
When I’m stable, I don’t have these kinds of thoughts. My Depression Health Card and my Paranoid Health Card taught me that this is the illness thinking. I use my Health Cards to get myself through these nasty, distorted episodes. You need a plan as well. It’s hard to fight your own brain.
When I was a kid, we played telephone. Sit in a circle and one person says a phrase and the next person then repeats the phrase as it goes around the circle. It is always distorted! What started as
Julie is a good and kind person…
Julie reprimands and demands too much from people!
Bipolar is our personal telephone game. It distorts our thinking. We have to fight this and know who we are when stable so that we can counter act the distorted thoughts.
I have friends. I have a social life. I am a real person with hopes and dreams. I am not a speck of dirt on the street of life. I am not an insignificant ant. I want to live and I want to be happy. This is normal thinking.
Do you have #bipolar distortion?



Bipolar Disorder and Addiction

A few words on bipolar disorder and addictive behaviors. It’s normal for people with mood disorders to turn to another substance to feel better. Our illness sucks. The problem is that we only have so much brain space and addictive behaviors take up a large part of life that we need in order to manage our illness.

For example, my addiction is sugar. When it is not controlled, I will choose eating sugar over seeing people. I isolate and use food to feel better. I know this. I know it is not the smartest choice and yet it is always a challenge.

Addiction is helped by replacing the behavior with something that feels better. I have to focus on what feels better than ice-cream. Ice cream is the heroin of the sugar world as anyone with an eating disorder will tell you.

What causes any of us to choose a substance over a person or an event? It is because we somehow believe that the substance will give us more than the person or event will give us.

One way I deal with my addictive behaviors is to have more fun in life. Taking a class. Saying yes to invitations even when I want to isolate.

No one is judging you if you have additive behaviors along with your mood swings. Start today by adding things to life that make you feel good. Is is a dog? A new partner? A writing class or a painting class? How about doing something for someone else?

I want to gamble when I get sick. I want to drink when I get sick. I want to stick my face in a cake when I get sick.

That is addictive behavior and part of our illness.

What can we do today to choose something else besides the addiction?


PS: I am sure this is Tuna Flavored Icing. HEHE.

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